Friendship

I just want you to know how much I care about you. The last month has been so terrible for me... but in comparison to the last 36 hours of my life, that month meant absolutely nothing. I have never had a friend like you. I have never had someone that I felt I could open up to and just be myself with. The closest friends I had in life were in high school... and they still never "got" me. I could never be myself, anything I did was always "too weird" for them. Even the one friend that I was my absolute wackiest with... she only wanted to be around me when I wanted to do crazy things and make her laugh. When I was serious, or sad, or something happened, she was never there. The only person I have had that I have been truly able to count on since before I met you is my husband. Now, Tim is definitely my best friend, but when that title is hyphenated as best friend-husband, that isn't just a best friend. He bought into listening to my bullshit everyday. He put a ring on it and said "Dear Government, I promise to be with this bitch until I successfully file divorce papers or she dies." That's a commitment you can't get rid of very easily. It's not like a friendship, especially a friendship via a texting app with a person who lives across an ocean from you. That type of friendship is fragile. It needs lots of care to make sure it grows strong and keeps on trucking. I want us to be friends always... and I know that our friendship, especially now, needs care in a big way. I want to be there for that. I'm hoping that you want to be there as much as I do.

Last but not least...

 some pretty flowers that represent friendship.